Am in one of those zones of mine, as Aunt Jamesina in Anne.... says, she used to be 6 girls at a time, when she was young! Well, I am the confused one right now...

Trying to balance what I want to do wid life with what I am doing and what I should be doing. I read Po Branson's 'What should I do with my life?'... its about people who are in seemingly good places in their lives, but veer off the road to explore what lies beyond, to pursue what has always interested them, rather than spending the rest of their lives wondering 'What If?'

Of course, there is the comfort zone that one has gotten used to over time, which is not an easy one to let go of, the fear of failing is another... But, there are several ppl, all over the world, who went for it! And are now happier!

So, I wonder, well, I better stop wondering and do something abt life soon, else it will 2008, and another year would pass me by, and I wud still be wondering!

Good Nite!
Kinda calm Me!

P,s: Surprisingly, the day was not too bad, considering that yesterday felt like I had fallen headlong into a puddle of muck, wid no Surf-Excel around!

Shucks! Whenever I want to leave on time, work crops up at the very last minute! Life sucks, and big TImE!

Frustrated!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hmmm....

Its strange ya, the things that I would have thought would make me go WOW no longer hold the same appeal. Have I changed or is it true that things hold their charm only as long as they remain unattainable! That the appeal is in the chase, the hunt, the race, That when you finally reach the finish line, you are faced with 'Ok, so that wasn't so difficult, now, was it!'

I look around me, and I see certain people with a great sense of accomplishment, of achievement; they sometimes look at me like I have achieved things, but what if what people think you have achieved is not what you think is you! What if you are capable of a lot more, but somewehere along the way, you just drifted along, and now you have come so far, that you wonder what if you hadn't just drifted, but taken a turn, explored that bend in the river, God knows what might have been in store for you!
Then again, I wonder what if the bend is explored now, after all if you reached the finish line once, maybe you can reach it again.

Am reading Anne of Green Gables for the n'th time, and I hope I manage to retain her 'joie de vivre' for the rest of my life. She was faced with a bend in her road, she took that, and the path led to a glorious sense of fulfiment and peace. She got back on the highway sometime later, and drove down at 200 kmph towards another life of success and fulfilment.

Anne inspires me, I hope I get on that highway soon.

Have a good day all!
Anya